Friday, 25 September 2009
Guys... let's hang out AGAIN.... haha.. i had soo soo much fun... thakz for opening up my eyes to something that i was missing all this time... there are times when u must be open to eveything... let loose an have fun... it's not the roght thing to do but then this is life... we live once in a lifetime... so enjoy it while you can...
that road traffic accident which a man died from... i turned out that case... it thought me that life can end just about anytime... it was said cause it was 2 days away from hari raya... he was an indian i think.. but he could be indian muslim right... so whatever race he is... i can only pray for him...
life is too short... you got to enjoy it while you can... that was what i was missing all this time... i was so caught up alone all by myself that i forgot what its like it like to hag out with friends...
and the result is... i miss all of them... i miss the fazkys gang... Lpccs... affah and gang... whitney and gang of course... my stn crew n of course FIFI!!!... i miss them all... and i noe there's more friends to come... i'm looking forward to it...
i learn that when yo are too decent.. always thinking bout yourself... then you will never have fun... that outing remind me why im always filled with friends.. cause wherever i come from... i was always and ive been apart of them...
they didnt forget me... haha.. and w just enjoyed the night... haha =D...
all this time i was so sad because of nothing... because i felt like i was forgotten.. but deep down... now i know i'm not... im too sensitive... thats my problem...
i let loose that night and see how much fun i had... so now i guess its time i chage my attitude... you guys noes right when i let loose.. kan zakya... im gonna get more of that potion... fuck the world and just have fun... haha...
PEople... LET's get LooSE and LeT's PARTY!!! =D
btw raya pics is here... =D i look dashing right.. hahaha... XP
guys.. outing on my birthday ok... i wanna have fun.. haha.. da giler aku ni.. hee... =D
Saturday, 19 September 2009
oh gosh... sunday raya but im not feeling it... i dont know why.. is it because of the dead driver i encounter during my rescue work?? cause it was my first dead cases afterall... i felt sorry for the driver.. how would his family feel? all i can do now is just pray for him... =(
it was my first rescue you see... but it ended in a failure.. atleast for me... and is tis why im so proud of becoming a rescuer... but ended up i couldnt save him?? his face is stuck on my head every night... i remember how he look like.. old man probably in his 40s or 50s... broken nose... blood everywhere... i could see the bones and the inside of his leg... it was not that bad but it was still so gruesome...
And this Sunday is Raya.. i just lost my mood... i miss my miss kecohrable so much but i'm trying to give her space... cause i know she is really busy... i got to understand that.. she's getting busier everyday... i'm wonder if day by day... i'm getting further and further behind in her mind...
gees i'm feeling like fucked today... i dont know why... and btw sorry to fir and miza for not being able to make it today... im supposed to clean up my house... i'm sorry to have to bubble you guys... its not intentional... and to lucy and shidah.. im sorry for bubbling you too... kate nk kluakan.. in the end i went back on my words...
its a rough week for me this week.. i feel as if i've lost everything... =(
maybe... i have...
Thursday, 10 September 2009
it feels as if im running away from something... i find life to be exactly how it was when i was 7... all alone in this small island... with no one i want to care about... and just be by myself... it's more peaceful you see...
i dunnoe why but i just like to be alone all the time... but you know i still miss all of you... time seems to have chance.. everyone is busy with their own things... i don't even have time for myself and you guys... for once i loved the feeling of just staying at home and just lepak...
i hate the fact that people have been asking me to go out cause.. im never in the mood to do so... but you know.. everytime i go out with you guys... i really enjoy myself... i look back at all the times.. when i was young... and all the times i spend with you guys... age is really catching up to me... but its good to know you guys are doing fine without me...
after i ord from ns... 75 % of me will say that im gonna work overseas... ilyas is already asking for me for a job at bintan... as a fireman over there.. and the duration of the contract would be for 10 years... most probably if i got it... i wont be studying and most probably i would go work and also stay there...
so the things i've been doing.. avoiding you guys... is not because i want it... but i have to learn not to miss you guys so much... so that when i get the job... life would be afresh...
but dun't worry... i'm still gonna remember you guys... you guys are my friends and i'm gonna cherish that for life... i promise... in the meantime.. no promises to any outing for now till forever... and it includes hari raye ok... but i try my best to get in the mood and go out with you guys... so yeah all the best to all of you in whatever you're doing...
* i miss the hang outs with you guys... =(
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
I was browsing through the net and i found this... it was surprising to know what children are thinking this days... =D
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4
Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen," Bobby - age 7
(Wow!)"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6
"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them." Jenny - age 8
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore," Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine -age 5"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6"
You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget," Jessica - age 8
Saturday, 5 September 2009
i open my blog today and saw a tag from syad... she said she saw me... haha.. i think it must be at causeway point... cause i went there to watch The Proposal with my oh so lovely ms kecohrables... i must say she have an eye for movies... cause that show was great... and it was so romantic..
haha didnt know she had this romantic personality in her... i loike... so we head 4 c.p at 6.30 on wednesday... and i had a few bumps here and there... i met sidiq and some others i didn't remember their name.. haha.. rabak sak aku.. lol...
we break fast in the cinema itself... had burger king... haha.. now i noe wat to buy for her if im supposed to pick her up from work... and when she hasn't ate a proper meal... =D
well we still not dating if u guys are wondering... so pls dont ask me where's my girlfriend and stuff.. haha... its not easy finding someone you are fond of... but i think i found mine in her... but then whatever happens in the future... as long as she's happy... then its more than enough...
you noe... i have friends who keep asking me y we r not dating and stuff... or some who said go find someone else and etc... well the reason being... she's the one that i want... it so hard to let go when you know that she is still single and available even when she's not ready for a relationship... hey... if that the case... then i take this time to show her how much she meant to me...
but then they ask... what if i fail..? well thats easy... fail fail la... haha... cause you're already fail when you didn't even try... atleast i've tried... and i still get to spend time with her... thats already enough... to noe such a person... im even lucky that i get to meet her...
the feeling would sucks i know... but then.. its not gonna be the first time i fail at something... i used to be such a loser... i admit... but look at where it got me...
it gave me confidence on everything i do... whether i succeed or not... time when i fail.. its because i gave up half way... and it's because i thought the battle is already lost...
this time.. i got nothing to lose right... you know what... she changed me in some way... you can't imagined how thankful i am...
i must be crazy waiting for someone who don't even know when she'll be ready.. or if i even step foot on that stage... but hey... when you love someone... you'll still would wait for that person even if it take years right... so no complaint from me... =D
besides... she's always on my mind... in my dreams... and even when im during my fire drill... =S hee... she's like a poster stuck on my wall you know.. hehe...
well im looking forward for our next outing together... break fast at that special place i bought her for her birthday... we missed that place so much... hehe... darn should have kept it a secret.. =S lol...
*"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything..."
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*" If you hold tightly to a bird... you will kill it... If you hold it enough that it can not fly away... it will peck you... If you let it go... it will fly free... and you can watch its beauty...... so if you love something... let it go... if it comes back to you... it is yours... If it doesn't, then it was never yours..."
Wednesday, 2 September 2009
Finally... i think i got secondhand serenade song in the bag... i think.. still have to get the singing part though... well its ok... i'm making progress... its not easy to play this song in a week ok... but it was manageable...
well... i want to apologise to the fazkys gang abot this sat's break fast... they planned to go out and eat... but im not joining them.. sorry ya... the truth is.. i'm gonna be too tired to go out cause im working 24 on friday... so yah... next time perhaps... besides.. i'm happier break fasting at home with my family...
anyway i lost my mood to do anything this few days due to my injury... it still hasn't heal and i'm so desperate to go out to play soccer... grr... but i just can't...
anywhere time flies so fast when you never think about it... i have my ippt which is also known as napha test to clear by next month... and i'm out of shape.. need to do exercises... anybody interested to follow me for a jog??? =)
well guys ill be closing down my blog pretty soon... in a month time... reason being.. im just too lazy and busy to blog... and i guess its gonna be the end...
so enjoy reading what is in my blog for now ok...
arios...
Tuesday, 1 September 2009
A story about Rose...
The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?" I laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of course you may!" and she gave me a giant squeeze. "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" I asked. She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, have a couple of children, and then retire and travel." "No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age." I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me. After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me. Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up. At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know." As we laughed she cleared her throat and began: "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success." You have to laugh and find humor every day. "You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!" "There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change." "Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets. She concluded her speech by courageously singing "The Rose." She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives. At the years end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be. If you read this, please send this peaceful word of advice to your friends and family, they'll really enjoy it!
We send these words in loving memory of ROSE Remember,
GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY,
GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.
Life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it...
